What is Normal? It’s definitely not me…🤔

It always surprises me when someone says… your not normal… your weird…some people might take this as an insult. Personally I take it as a compliment.😉

I drink my coffee out of a Disney mug. I have a Disney calendar for my desk. I cry during animated Disney films.

Does this make me weird? Perhaps. I just have a emotional connection to Disney films. They got me through some rough stuff when I was a kid. Parents divorces, deaths in family, the awkward teenage years…I think if it is something that matters to you, it effects you in different ways. I am sure there is something from your childhood that got you through a tough time…a song, a book, a friend…I was lucky to have the stability of two sets of grandparents around me all the time. That is the only reason I survived my parents craziness. Being normal has never been required.

I just watched Encanto last night… it was absolutely wonderful!! I could seriously relate to mirabel…she was always trying to find her place. I was too. I am still even at 45. She wants to be just like everyone else. Instead she should be her own unique self. Not normal.

I try to be perfect all the time. At work. At home. As a mom. As a wife. I fail miserably. I am a klutz, accident prone, and I forget things. However, I am a workaholic when it comes to my job and my home. I tend to not work hard on things that I want, or need. (Like my writing, my novels) It’s a bad habit… I need to break.

So my writing is a work in progress. It’s changing, it’s editing, it’s main fantasy elements are changing. I am a perfectionist when it comes to them. I will not sit down and write that scene until I figured out the how…the fly by the seat spontaneous writing always bites me in the ass later…

Some people call this procrastinating. Maybe it is. Maybe it’s a fear of failure. It’s always in the back of my mind…your not a writer…your just an amateur trying to be a writer. Maybe I am. I know I was born to tell stories! I know that I love them. I know that when I’m writing I feel a buzz with energy, joy, excitement! It feels like what I should be doing. Everyday, day and night.

My logical mind always talks me out of my most valued things for me. I am trying to change that. It’s a mental mind set only I can change. Once I am clear of it…I am sure everything else will go smoothly. 🤞

So my series is different. It’s unlike the others out there. It needs to be different, not normal, like everyone else. I don’t care if I only sell one copy. It will be me…it will be everything that is not normal…so this takes time. Good things always do.

That is all I have for today friends! So screw being normal. Just be the absolute best you! Strive for what makes you happy. Work hard to achieve it…in your time…within your process…it matters and so do you! Life and writing is a work in progress…(just like me)😉

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